3 week into the holidays. I haven't seemed to enjoy much.

anyways, I'm really sorry, I've been trying my best, but my mood just dies.
Its amazing how speechless I am when we are conversing,
how topics don't flow into my mind like they used to.
in everybody's conversations with me, everything is happy, exciting, sad and a whole mixture of diverse elements of emotions. But with you, it pretty much starts with an okay mood, then it snowballs down the road to sadness. I wonder why, I can't fork out the answer in my mind. I am really trying, I need to put a stop to this situation quick before I totally lose my sanity.
I'll have to either fix this or run away from this.
Fixing it means that I'll have to fight head-on with this problem. but I am pretty much not allowed to do this?
Running away. I'll have to totally make sure our lives never inter-twine anymore.
or maybe I could just live in the sea of emotions?
this alligator-infested swamp..
right now you probably understand what I am going through, but still not know why and what is causing me to be like this. heh.
well, My Theme Song For Tonight:
- When I'm With You - Faber Drive -

"When I'm With You, I'll Make Every Second Count Cause I Miss You, Whenever You're Not Around."

"Saw you walk in to the room
Thought i'd try to talk to you
am i ever glad you wanted me to "

I'll try. really.