What I'm feeling now, was 4 days ago,
Where things Like that just don't happen.
Words like that from alter-egos,
But I'm just no exception.

It isn't like me to write on this,
These moments I shall never miss,
Those needs that were to be met,
Those times I will never forget.

I'm lost, I'm torn
My cause adorned?
This hurt, This pain
My heart's just mundane.

Beats living in me own hell
Beats thinking in a nutshell
In My head there's a ringing bell
Ah shit damn oh well

I'm contemplating a change
unfortunately this issue's such a bane, this pain's just driving me insane
You're leaving me slained
theres nothing to be gained.



-Sam²

Tragedy For Sure.

Yet again an overexpectation
You've totally ruined my constitution
You've left me in desperate contemplation
am I supposed to continue my adulation?

Might as well grab a beer.
Though I would love to indulge in a bottle of champagne with you

The Cold
The Night
I'm Sold, inside.





Friction, The reverse force which tranfers energy into sound and heat.
But lets talk about "heat".
Without the Sun, There will be no life,
Without Humans, There will be no strife.

This is my story, story of my year
the book that hasn't been completed.
everything I yearn today
is to get back what I had yesterday

Your warmth, Your smile
You gave, You saved.
All I want is to get back to that hour, get back next to You
The moment you rescued me, was that instant You stole me away.
It was more than what I expected for incalculable days.

Thanks for all You've been to me
Thanks for keeping me in Your life
I'm afraid to say what I mean
Ashamed to be seen
But if it was a hint for me
which is so unlikely
I only hope we can get back to that moment of cold, that moment of warmth.

The contradictory words I had in that sentence
I was cold, I was warm.
But I wasn't physically warm, though your efforts to help were greatly admired, greatly adored.

In my heart, that's where this passage belongs
In my mind, that's all I longed (for).
In my life, you're my song
In my warmth, I am loved.
In Your life, I'll be next to your silhouette, ready to catch you anytime you take the jump.

This is my cry
for You to be here
and for You to hear
It isn't a lie



-Sam² just for you to know. though you won't see what I've sown

And Here You See A Fat Ass Conductor

The Picture Looks So Much Better In Shadows




Feel the calm in the breeze
feel the ease in the seas.
You've been Thinking, Over-thinking
Thoughts that you shouldn't think
You've been sinking, You've been cringing
on him taking you to the brink.

When I felt your cries in the spark of the night
those wandering thoughts that ran through your mind
18 days, you killing me?
well that's that as far as I can see
after this You'd be gone
another 15, back you'll spawn.
but it'll be 5 more added till joy dawns.

So "The Dark Knight" was cool
though the Joker Owned him flat.
Chloe's concert was good
and it wasn't that bad.

=)


-Sam²

what is the point in living?
what have we gained from our suffering?
Don't we all die the same way, back to where we came from.

this is irreparable, undeniable, unmendable.
i am not trying, are you?
this shall be one of the last things i shall post at this time.
we go a year back, but i don't see how we started.
we're like oil and water, we don't mix.
you're like a bird while i'm a dog, we can't understand each other.

so I guess this is the end?
is this the end?
could this be the start of a cold war?
cause if it is i'll cut my head of with a saw.
sam, you suck the shit out of people you know?
you think this is playing with dough?
where you can mould things back to normal after you crush things?
what in the bloody crap are you thinking?
maybe I should be the shit that you step on, bring it on.
i'm ready.

do you think we'll ever sort this out?
do you think we can lose this crowd?
there aren't really things that I doubt,
this is an exception lest i see a change in me, or a change in you.

Go ahead, adore and bask in the light.
while i'll strangle myself here due to this plight.
help me with this would you mind?
or you just want me to get out of your sight?

I've told you that you'll get sick and tired of me,
and you denied it.
see the ending of our night?
doesn't it stir up a fright,in you, in me.
but i hold on to the fact that i'm nothing to you.
you passed my test, and hopefully you'll get to live life better
even if i/you were to fix this now, i'm sure i can talk to you fine, oh yes i can, that i can promise.
people grow, people change.

Whatever goes, goes.
Whatever will be, will be.

But I still hold strongly to the fact that you don't need me, when you do accept that, maybe things will lighten up.
cause you can't hold to a lie.
or maybe your definition of need is totally off. cause you don't need me at all. you can survive without me for 1week or 2?
I don't see a need for me. so please, lying is a sin.
admit that you don't need me one bit. cause i need you to say that. and mean it.
if you don't mean it, don't say it.
and please, inform me on what I should do about this next.
1) put this behind us ( our usual escapee motives)
2) Just go with the flow ( not changing anything )
3) have a good chat and find out what the hell is wrong ( face-off )

Tell me. or (2) is the choice.