So I've come to a final realisation,
that all I desired will never come into fruition.
This double life I lead,
Will definitely not fulfil me.

I've learnt about being dependant,
that all I need to do about it is screw it.
I've studied my feelings of being decadent,
I'm ripping myself to bits.

So you're my kin, you're my best friend,
you're who I adulate, who I confide in at every bend
but wth have you done for me?
Sacrifice that is from me.

I thank all of you for this
It seems I ain't much of a good person
I hate changes in my life, I hate changes, they cause strife.
But I can't be selfish I've got to admit my lost,
You've found a better friend, I should just get lost.
I understand what it's like to be jealous and envious now
before I leave may I just take my last bow?

I admire your attitude, you got over it in a split-second.
W.T.H??
I must be shit, I must be disposable.
"Oh You're Done? Throw Me Off The Table.."

*(School Friends.. heh, thanks bros for keeping me company for this whole month, I really didn't remember anything from my broken heart.
But one thing no one in this world can do, is repair me part by part.)
* You guys Won't be able to read this

Back to my subject
Back to my life
I hope no one reads this
especially . . . . .
but thank God this blog is stagnant, I hardly believe anyone comes to read it,
if they do my cover is burnt, and I'll just have to beat it.

- I'm Missing life the way it was before,
I'm Missing You the way you helped me thaw,
but it's all over now, I can't salvage it now.

I'll be waiting, I'll be.
But you'll be running, away from me. -

So this is my story
the one you are reading
I'm certain you came to find something good
I'm sorry I can't be happy
I can't find any meaning
but I'll find out soon once I dig up some roots.

-Sam^2-

P.S Don't cuddle up to me when you need me, like a vine you strangle me.
Don't toss me after you're done with me, like a line drawn between you and me.

Thanks, another one who left me alone. I just don't want to use the word I loathe using, cause when I start using it, You don't need to read this post anymore, it'll be filled with pain.