º.All Bad Things Come To An End. Love Is Just An Illusion.º

2008-12-02T16:01:00.000+08:00

is it possible to like someone more than your infatuation?
to rather talk to that person without hesistation?
can someone please enlighten me and someone please acknowledge me cause I'm feeling the kicks from rejection, why do I overexpect everyone so much? Why does generational gaps and other relationships get in my way of talking to people? why do I feel so insecure all the time not trusting anyone?
Why do I always get rejected when I accept my friend's wants though it pisses me off?
with all these questions, can anyone just answer me?

2008-11-17T01:30:00.000+08:00

I messed it up, I screwed it up, I pissed everyone off, I made everyone think I'm freaking weird, Angsty you say? Why Am I Angsty? It's cause I'm SCREWING UP MY LIFE AND DOING THINGS I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO DO. I'M FALLING IN LOVE WITH THE WRONG THINGS THE WRONG PEOPLE AND I'M LIVING LIFE EVERY DIRECTION THAT IS WRONG.
This is why, I'm angsty.

2008-11-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

the older you grow, the more ignorant to your friend's needs. I for one, try not to be like that.

2008-11-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

O's O's O's... It's only 1 week and 2 days more! though that sounds pretty long. but who cares! So I'm jotting down 1st November as the day where nobody wants to come online. Man, this is the most boring-est night I've ever experienced. ah well, it's anticipated since there's church tomorrow.... But hmm, Tonights moon is extremely beautiful. A huge smiling crescent with a tint of orange, sadly, my phone died before I could take it. It would be such a magnificent shot. The Singapore Flyer in the foreground, an orange crescent in the back. What contrast.

so small it's not worth the caps.

2008-10-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

everyday i look at facebook, everyday i see new pictures uploaded and hey, how everyone is picture perfect, how everyone just looks good in or out of photo frames.
i have already started to miss you. i hope you have a great trip, a great time around the world, see you.. 12th january 2009.
i feel so small, i feel obsolete, i feel like i'm an anomalous point on everyone's lifeline.
this is me, insecure

-sam

2008-10-13T17:14:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2008-10-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

It really is true, what I've been saying all this while
No one is ever by my side when I need them, I guess I'm just not held dear in anyone's heart. What irony, I really adore so many people for just being in my life, turns out like this.

2008-10-09T20:01:00.001+08:00

Mood : Extremely Pissed Off, Will Anybody Be My Punching Bag Tonight?

The Confession 2

2008-10-09T19:09:00.000+08:00

All these lonely nights waiting for replies
I can't see how time can fly
When I'm stuck behind the frame
With everyone demanding me to stop playing games.
I don't see the full picture
of how lies defile the photo inch-by-inch.
It just seems so lonely behind this frame
when everyone has gone two steps ahead
and I'm three steps from dropping dead
I really need you here right now.
I've been waiting behind this frame for so long
I really need you to keep me out of this bin
Cause this is where my insecureness kicks in.
Every second feels like a minute, and a minute an hour
waiting for you to speak before I turn sour
I still can't stand the fact that I've been turned away
Is this just my own conception of whatever you say, but you never spoke.
again I highlight my own seclusion and I yearn for someone to step into my solitude, my heart.
Have I ever spoke of the insatiable hunger of my heart to yearn for an unreachable person?
an undeniably sweet, cute, but oh so impossible person.
I never liked liking anyone, especially if it leaves you completely helpless.
Don't you think it's incredibly hapless to feel wholly helpless?
Have you ever experienced going to a shop, wanting to buy your favourite item, be it a shirt, an iPod, whatever, and realise that you're totally broke and in debt?
Have you ever felt the feeling of being useless?
Have you ever dreamt to be with a person only to wake up to life and realise that it's just a dream and that you'll have to experience the nightmare that is reality for the rest of your life?
Have you?

You sit there ruminating on what you intend to ruminate.

-Sam

.Confess

2008-10-08T21:03:00.002+08:00

A feeling that leaves a person all shivering inside, craving for someone to walk by and let loose a shower of comforting words.
You feel all gloomy inside and you resort to the extreme measures you never thought yourself to ever do
like the sky being ripped apart to reveal an insurmountable pain inside, the inevitable rain and stormy nights.
My chest being scarred again and again till you can see every cappilary and every bloody detail
being cut simultaneously, I wonder if I ever will change, or am I waiting on the world to change for me.

Lies, those are lies, I will always understand this feeling, this feeling that grants false hope to me,
why would you want to lie when you know you will not keep what you said?
Skies, oh the beauty of them, the puffy clouds forming shapes only discernable by the young and young-at-heart.
The stars that creates the glowy zen of the sky, the beauty of the glitter and the amazing sizes of them.
wherever you go, there is always a different sky, some people may beg to differ.
but who cares about the scientists that think they're always right?
There Will Always Be A Different Sky Wherever You Go To.
Take Singapore for and example compared to Rome, Italy.
Both skies differ in many aspects.
The number of visible stars, the amount of clouds, the feel of the atmosphere.
Skies are like different characteristics/feelings.
Lots of puffy clouds and glowing stars portraying the joy and freedom of the individual.
Shady/Heavy clouds and starless skies portraying the melancholy and dejection, the despondence and the want for someone to be near just to lend a shoulder, lend an ear.
Cloudless and starless skies, loneliness.

Well, I never revise what I write, on the 1st draft is where the feelings are all shown,
and this is.
I guess I understand how people feel when they get rejected, when they try to talk and don't get a positive answer,
when they try to converse yet the other side just leaves them in corner patching up their own heart.
It's like going to the dancefloor without a partner.
Going for dinner alone on the table.

Love, is what this world needs.
*rephrase*
Love, is what I need.
Attention, is what I crave.
Care, is what I adore.
Time, is what I want.
Love, is what I need.

This is my confession, the feeling I feel deep inside, is like the cloudless and starless skies, but somewhat still shady

Gray Skies And Butterflies

2008-10-06T13:07:00.000+08:00

We're closer than we ever knew
here I am saying this and I know its the truth
there isn't anything for me to prove
cause I know you know it too

You say it doesn't matter what people think
My sentiments exactly
But it never seems this simple
someone must have triggered the butterfly effect
cause everything I do for others seem to be deemed as a defect

But I'll step on a butterfly or two
so that in three years it'll be left with me and you
You may say you're not worth a fraction of a million
but in my heart, you're one in six billion.

-Sam

People I Love

2008-09-22T22:49:00.001+08:00

okay here comes another burst of my feelings
People who abuse People who kill
People who steal and don't pay their bills
People with lives that exclude me
People with truth like locks without keys
People that disregard every person who cared
People that disguise as a humble mare
People I'd love to have as close friends
People I'd search for in a sea of sand
People whom left me to bleed
People whom advices I never heed
People who are uncouth, anti-social and unlike the dreams of her
People who care in the shadows of nature
People who amazes and leaves me in awe
People who do not understand me but still call for an encore.

I would tear the oceans apart to find people that care
I would tear in my heart to find my personality bared
I would love the presence of people just being here
Be it sitting by the corridor or even drinking some beer ( Of which I hate ).
I need more of you in my life, I need more smiles in my life, and I also need much more time spared from friends ( the main thing that I'm lacking ).

Do unto others what you want others to do unto you, so why can't I get what I've tried my best to do unto others?

-Sam

* notes

2008-09-17T15:12:00.001+08:00

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The Unexpected

2008-09-17T15:03:00.000+08:00

Hey there, Miss Kang =)
Though You won't be reading this, it's the thought that counts right?
Thanks, for everything. You're unpredictable, unexpectable, but definitely the a really, really, really, extemely good friend and dependable. =)

Real Love,
Sam Sam

See You Again - Miley Cyrus

2008-09-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

I Got My Sights Set On You
And I'm Ready To Aim
I Have A Heart That Will
Never Be Tame
I Knew You Were Something Special
When You Spoke My Name
Now I Can't Wait
To See You Again

I've Got A Way Of Knowing
When something Is Right
I Feel Like I Must Have Known You
In Another Life
'Cause I Felt This Deep Connection
When You Looked In My Eyes
Now I Can't Wait
To See You Again

[CHORUS]
The Last Time I Freaked Out
I Just Kept Looking Down
I St-St-Stuttered When You Asked Me What I'm Thinking About
Felt Like I Couldn't Breath
You Asked What's Wrong With Me
My Best Friend Leslie said "Oh, She's Just Being Miley"
The Next Time We Hang Out
I Will Redeem Myself
My Heart Can't Rest 'Till Then
Whoah, Whoah, I
I Can't Wait
To See You Again

I Got This Crazy Feeling
Deep Inside
When You Called And Asked To See Me
Tomorrow Night
I'm Not A Mind Reader
But I'm Reading The Signs
That You Can't Wait
To See Me Again

[CHORUS]
The Last Time I Freaked Out
I Just Kept Looking Down
I St-St-Stuttered When You Asked Me What I'm Thinking About
Felt Like I Couldn't Breath
You Asked What's Wrong With Me
My Best Friend Leslie said "Oh, She's Just Being Miley"
The Next Time We Hang Out
I Will Redeem Myself
My Heart Can't Rest 'Till Then
Whoah, Whoah, I
I Can't Wait
To See You Again

I Got My Sights Set On You
And I'm Ready To Aim

[CHORUS]
The Last Time I Freaked Out
I Just Kept Looking Down
I St-St-Stuttered When You Asked Me What I'm Thinking About
Felt Like I Couldn't Breath
You Asked What's Wrong With Me
My Best Friend Leslie said "Oh, She's Just Being Miley"
The Next Time We Hang Out
I Will Redeem Myself
My Heart Can't Rest 'Till Then
Whoah, Whoah, I
I Can't Wait
To See You Again

Whoah, Whoah, I
I Can't Wait
To See You Again

Writers' Block

2008-09-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

Writer's Block

It's a sad, sad story when I get writer's block
One that may lead to tears
Tears for my agonizing pain
Tears because you know or have the feeling

It's a sad, sad story when i get writer's block
The indescribable feeling of unknowing
The inner knowing that you just don't know
A thought with no inspiration at all

It's a sad, sad story when I get writer's block
It's an inner pain both physical and mental
It's like having words at the tip of your tongue
That you can't ever figure out

It's a sad, sad story when I get writer's block
The words don't come to mind
The vision is gone
A story lost forever until it lands in the mind another

It's a sad, sad story when I get writer's block
An image wiped from my mind
The sparkle that is lost from my eye
My smile turned upside-down

It's a sad, sad story when I get writer's block
A story that is flowing, then stopped abruptly
A story with no end
One that is unwritten in mind and paper

It's a sad, sad story when I get writer's block
Wasting hours of life thinking
Thinking of the beginning of a life
Or the ending of their story

It's still a sad, sad story when I get writer's block
All of that pain and sorrow I go through
Luckily for me
I don't have writer's block

Nicole Wobster

Dilemma V 1.2

2008-09-15T23:56:00.000+08:00

If I refrained from talking to you would you mind?
If I never see your face again will my face ever appear in your mind?
I need an answer, can anyone give me one, an answer to whether I should even try to do what I do best, poking my nose into someone's life, when I don't even know whether they want me to or not.
You're unpredictable, you leave me speechless
You're irresistable, I stand here breathless.

So, any friends with advice? heh.... =) Please please pretty please handsome please cheery on top the cake with the frappes, everything won't go to naught though the sun is scorching hot, nothing shall be bought.

" Take Me To New York, I'd Love To See LA
Take Me To Chicago, San Franscisco Bay "

Debris

2008-09-14T23:26:00.001+08:00

So now I am in a dilemma, I don't know what to feel, A state of total confusion.
If nobody knows who I truly am, Then who am I truly?
What can I feel if your hands are not with mine, what can I do if my soul is with You? What if I said my life has been indirectly sold and souled to and for You?
But if You didn't know just those few words are detrimental to my heart, those words are the explosions that shatters every part of me.
You be the clouds which shades me from all danger, You be the dart that leaves me uncontrollably plaintive.
So now the Sun has gone away and You're the new Villain in the sky. You bring the storms that toss the waves around,
You shattered every glass You tore every road apart
Like You shattered my heart and You ripped my mind.

- Sam

2008-09-10T00:26:00.000+08:00

How Do You Stop An Inevitable Snowball?
How Do You Prevent An Inescapable Disaster?
How Do You Stich Back The Crevasse In My Chest?
How Do You Circumvent From Destroying Yourself?

I don't know what to feel right now, I am but a mind wrought with disaster, longing to be embellished by the fascinations of the world. I am neither at the start nor the end of my journey, I am sorry I cannot live up to your standards I sometimes wished I were older so I could prove myself worthy to live up to everyone's standards and not be looked down upon.
Envy and jeolousy, both are detrimental, but why is it so hard to be what God wants us to be?
I want to be someone that people would look up to, I want to be someone that people wouldn't aviod, I want to be someone that people would admire.
Unfortunately, I don't think that I'm either of these.

Lobster Notes

2008-09-02T22:26:00.001+08:00

http://trouble.iotashan.com/animals/lobster-info.cfm
www.bluecrayfish.com
http://www.practicalfishkeeping.co.uk/pfk/pages/show_article.php?article_id=484

Sweet Sixteen, Past Fifteen, Before Seventeen, Still Younger Than Yngwie Malmsteen

2008-09-02T00:46:00.002+08:00

So yesterday was my birthday. =)
Thank you everone who wished me.
Starting from the best few.
1.Caleb ( Lebs )
2.Ryan ( rYn )
3.Luke ( LkE )

4.Chloe ( My Dear Fishy Sis )
5.Ivan
6.Xing Qi ( BigBigSis )
7.Xing Kang ( BigBigSis' Bigsis! )
8.Karen ( BestFriend )
9.Amos Lim ( My Bro )
10.Papa/Mummy ( PARE UNTS )
11.Merrilyn ( Merri )
12.YiEn ( Ernie )

13.Wen Ai
14.Shawn/Nick Wee
15.Andrew Thian
16.Jiamei ( Sis )
17.Carlos ( The Guy Who Tries To Jump High High )
18.Carisser
19.Amias
20.Alcinda
21.Gerald
22.Xiaole
23.Jermaine
24.Victoria
25.Nadine
26.Emil
27.Esther
28.Jasmine
29.David
30.Seth

*
31.Yi Hui
32.Eugene
33.Barnabas
34.Wang Kin

Thank you all! =)

Top 3 - for wishing me, then accompanying me for the night to fix the wonderful aquarium, and the two lobbies Climbey ( Stan-d-ley ), and Foodie ( Hippie ). Had a great time and confusing time at Fish and Co. ! =)

The Next 9 - For wishing me/talking to me/accompanying me/bringing me out for lunch/smsing/all other wonderful deeds. =)

The Rest - For wishing me a wonderful Sixteenth. =) thanks

* added - BELATED

You.Guys.Are.Wonderful.
-Sam O-(^^Q)

A Mime Sprawling For A Dime

2008-08-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

So I've come to a final realisation,
that all I desired will never come into fruition.
This double life I lead,
Will definitely not fulfil me.

I've learnt about being dependant,
that all I need to do about it is screw it.
I've studied my feelings of being decadent,
I'm ripping myself to bits.

So you're my kin, you're my best friend,
you're who I adulate, who I confide in at every bend
but wth have you done for me?
Sacrifice that is from me.

I thank all of you for this
It seems I ain't much of a good person
I hate changes in my life, I hate changes, they cause strife.
But I can't be selfish I've got to admit my lost,
You've found a better friend, I should just get lost.
I understand what it's like to be jealous and envious now
before I leave may I just take my last bow?

I admire your attitude, you got over it in a split-second.
W.T.H??
I must be shit, I must be disposable.
"Oh You're Done? Throw Me Off The Table.."

*(School Friends.. heh, thanks bros for keeping me company for this whole month, I really didn't remember anything from my broken heart.
But one thing no one in this world can do, is repair me part by part.)
* You guys Won't be able to read this

Back to my subject
Back to my life
I hope no one reads this
especially . . . . .
but thank God this blog is stagnant, I hardly believe anyone comes to read it,
if they do my cover is burnt, and I'll just have to beat it.

- I'm Missing life the way it was before,
I'm Missing You the way you helped me thaw,
but it's all over now, I can't salvage it now.

I'll be waiting, I'll be.
But you'll be running, away from me. -

So this is my story
the one you are reading
I'm certain you came to find something good
I'm sorry I can't be happy
I can't find any meaning
but I'll find out soon once I dig up some roots.

-Sam^2-

P.S Don't cuddle up to me when you need me, like a vine you strangle me.
Don't toss me after you're done with me, like a line drawn between you and me.

Thanks, another one who left me alone. I just don't want to use the word I loathe using, cause when I start using it, You don't need to read this post anymore, it'll be filled with pain.

Maybe..

2008-08-09T00:21:00.003+08:00

Beep Beep Oh Look Now There Goes My Phone
And Once Again Im Just Hoping Its A Text From You

It Aint Right I read your Messages Twice thrice Four Times A Night Its True
Everyday I Patiently Wait
Feeling Like A Fool But I Do Anyway
Nothing Can Feel As Sweet And As Real
As Knowing I Wasn't Waiting In Vain

And Maybe Its True (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
Maybe Theres A Chance That you're
Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong, Its All In My Head
Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

I'm Always Connected Online
Hooked On MySpace All The Time
Hoping You've Checked My Profile

Just can't help wondering why you play it cool but I'm hopelessly falling for you

Every night Im on the phone and I loving you and I know you that you like it girl, now dont keep it inside what's in the night. No come say what your trying to hide.

And Maybe Its True (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
Maybe Thers A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

Like I really want you, I think I need you, Maybe I miss you, Im thinking of you

And Maybe Its True Oh (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
(Maybe Yeh)Maybe Thers A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong (Maybe yeh)Its All,In My Head (oh no)
Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

And Maybe Its True (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
Maybe there's a chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

Its amazing how every line fits, from both these songs.

Avril, You See Through My Heart. This Is My Song

2008-08-06T19:06:00.001+08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart,
I'm missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do,
reminds me of you,
and the clothes you left, that lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

(I miss you )

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me Yeah...

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear, will always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you...

27

2008-08-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

I'm only hoping that our lives intertwined in a more intimate way,
our time coincided every single day.
But its 27
27 if efforts for thursday don't bring the desirable outcomes to full fruition,
life must still go on no?
well, to be honest, even though you were here, I have no one to lean on, slowly 1-by-1 everyone has been leaving me, from the closest to the least of my closest friends.
everyone has slowly faded from my sight, no one to help me turn wrong into right.
I have nobody that I feel comfortable in confiding anymore, I am not getting responses, expected outcomes.
If only you could read my heart like a crystal, every single flaw, shine, curve, detail. I only try to do unto others what I hope others would do unto me.
But, I understand, I hope I do.
Even I have people whom I don't confide in, people who talk to me but I don't reply them the way I reply those I want to talk to.
And this is my wish, "I pray that I'll be someone you can confide in, believe in, trust in, and I will be the one whom you know you can lean on in times of trouble."

Though when you lean on me, I won't have anyone else to lean on, but its fine.
Me and You, with God above. That's all we need, or shall I say, I need.

If only you could read every weave and braid in the fabrications of my heart
you would understand what I'm feeling and I hope you would act in another way.

2008-08-01T20:49:00.001+08:00

2008-07-30T15:49:00.001+08:00

What I'm feeling now, was 4 days ago,
Where things Like that just don't happen.
Words like that from alter-egos,
But I'm just no exception.

It isn't like me to write on this,
These moments I shall never miss,
Those needs that were to be met,
Those times I will never forget.

I'm lost, I'm torn
My cause adorned?
This hurt, This pain
My heart's just mundane.

Beats living in me own hell
Beats thinking in a nutshell
In My head there's a ringing bell
Ah shit damn oh well

I'm contemplating a change
unfortunately this issue's such a bane, this pain's just driving me insane
You're leaving me slained
theres nothing to be gained.

-Sam²

2008-07-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

Tragedy For Sure.

Yet again an overexpectation
You've totally ruined my constitution
You've left me in desperate contemplation
am I supposed to continue my adulation?

Might as well grab a beer.
Though I would love to indulge in a bottle of champagne with you

2008-07-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

The Cold
The Night
I'm Sold, inside.

Friction, The reverse force which tranfers energy into sound and heat.
But lets talk about "heat".
Without the Sun, There will be no life,
Without Humans, There will be no strife.

This is my story, story of my year
the book that hasn't been completed.
everything I yearn today
is to get back what I had yesterday

Your warmth, Your smile
You gave, You saved.
All I want is to get back to that hour, get back next to You
The moment you rescued me, was that instant You stole me away.
It was more than what I expected for incalculable days.

Thanks for all You've been to me
Thanks for keeping me in Your life
I'm afraid to say what I mean
Ashamed to be seen
But if it was a hint for me
which is so unlikely
I only hope we can get back to that moment of cold, that moment of warmth.

The contradictory words I had in that sentence
I was cold, I was warm.
But I wasn't physically warm, though your efforts to help were greatly admired, greatly adored.

In my heart, that's where this passage belongs
In my mind, that's all I longed (for).
In my life, you're my song
In my warmth, I am loved.
In Your life, I'll be next to your silhouette, ready to catch you anytime you take the jump.

This is my cry
for You to be here
and for You to hear
It isn't a lie

-Sam² just for you to know. though you won't see what I've sown

2008-07-21T22:18:00.001+08:00

And Here You See A Fat Ass Conductor

The Picture Looks So Much Better In Shadows

Feel the calm in the breeze
feel the ease in the seas.
You've been Thinking, Over-thinking
Thoughts that you shouldn't think
You've been sinking, You've been cringing
on him taking you to the brink.

When I felt your cries in the spark of the night
those wandering thoughts that ran through your mind
18 days, you killing me?
well that's that as far as I can see
after this You'd be gone
another 15, back you'll spawn.
but it'll be 5 more added till joy dawns.

So "The Dark Knight" was cool
though the Joker Owned him flat.
Chloe's concert was good
and it wasn't that bad.

=)

-Sam²

2008-07-07T23:03:00.000+08:00

what is the point in living?
what have we gained from our suffering?
Don't we all die the same way, back to where we came from.

this is irreparable, undeniable, unmendable.
i am not trying, are you?
this shall be one of the last things i shall post at this time.
we go a year back, but i don't see how we started.
we're like oil and water, we don't mix.
you're like a bird while i'm a dog, we can't understand each other.

so I guess this is the end?
is this the end?
could this be the start of a cold war?
cause if it is i'll cut my head of with a saw.
sam, you suck the shit out of people you know?
you think this is playing with dough?
where you can mould things back to normal after you crush things?
what in the bloody crap are you thinking?
maybe I should be the shit that you step on, bring it on.
i'm ready.

do you think we'll ever sort this out?
do you think we can lose this crowd?
there aren't really things that I doubt,
this is an exception lest i see a change in me, or a change in you.

Go ahead, adore and bask in the light.
while i'll strangle myself here due to this plight.
help me with this would you mind?
or you just want me to get out of your sight?

I've told you that you'll get sick and tired of me,
and you denied it.
see the ending of our night?
doesn't it stir up a fright,in you, in me.
but i hold on to the fact that i'm nothing to you.
you passed my test, and hopefully you'll get to live life better
even if i/you were to fix this now, i'm sure i can talk to you fine, oh yes i can, that i can promise.
people grow, people change.

Whatever goes, goes.
Whatever will be, will be.

But I still hold strongly to the fact that you don't need me, when you do accept that, maybe things will lighten up.
cause you can't hold to a lie.
or maybe your definition of need is totally off. cause you don't need me at all. you can survive without me for 1week or 2?
I don't see a need for me. so please, lying is a sin.
admit that you don't need me one bit. cause i need you to say that. and mean it.
if you don't mean it, don't say it.
and please, inform me on what I should do about this next.
1) put this behind us ( our usual escapee motives)
2) Just go with the flow ( not changing anything )
3) have a good chat and find out what the hell is wrong ( face-off )

Tell me. or (2) is the choice.

All Bad Things Come To An End. But Love Is Just An Illusion

2008-06-26T23:48:00.001+08:00

Maybe I've been living in my own world,
maybe I've been in self-denial, being self-delusional

But life isn't cut out to be fun and stuff right?
so I guess my mindset is wrong.

still, hardly anyone helps to make life easier
especially when in need, the circle of friends around you crumble.

Looks Like I'll have to narrow down my friends again and handpick from there who are the real ones I can rely on.
Seems like, hmmm, 2, or 1, or 3, or none.
I don't really know.
But neither do any of you. =)
haha, Friends are meant to make things easier when life gets hard.
not when problems occur and everyone just splits apart.

I'm A Heartbreaker . - Heartbreaker- -Will.I.Am-

P.S Karen you're still fine. =)
Life is still good as long as you live in the right light and the bright side. =)

2008-06-22T20:55:00.002+08:00

Giving your word,
being forced into a universe so parallel.
Your equation is more than just a simple surd
You are more than just a cancer that's visceral.
Don't you feel guilt?
The way you bring false hope?
You're holding me like a warrior with his hilt.
When things are already so hard to cope with.

I marked those words, I trusted those messages.
I feel like a turd, falling through the same crevasses
over and over again.
its like how rain beats the ground
how water fills the clouds
how an electrical circuit works - A faulty appliance without an earth wire, and a live wire from which it draws energy from. The faultiness, though, is screwing up the whole circuit, preventing a full circuit, and therefore, a One-Sided job, while one side gives and doesn't receives, the other receives and doesn't seem to ever give back.

It just makes me wonder, am I the Faulty Appliance, or is that you?

Words can kill
Words demoralise
but the thing is, words can do the exact opposite too.

Giving Hope.
But whats with saying and giving a sense of hope when in the end, you aren't gonna even put 1 small speck of effort into things?

NATO - No Action Talk Only.

heh. What Joy this holidays have been... what joy you have brought. hmm.. what joy did you bring. if you sum up all the equations.
A plus-minus equation. hope + hope + hope ... only to end up with ... -(Broken + Broken + Broken) ... all this
= 0

It was you I was thinking of

2008-06-16T17:08:00.000+08:00

-The Mixed Tape-

2008-06-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

As The Deer Panteth For The Water So My Soul Longeth After Thee.
You Alone Are My Strength My Shield, To You Alone May My Spirit Yield.
You Alone Are My Heart's Desire And I Long To Worship You.

I'll Take It Back To The Start.

2008-06-11T21:58:00.001+08:00

3 week into the holidays. I haven't seemed to enjoy much.

anyways, I'm really sorry, I've been trying my best, but my mood just dies.
Its amazing how speechless I am when we are conversing,
how topics don't flow into my mind like they used to.
in everybody's conversations with me, everything is happy, exciting, sad and a whole mixture of diverse elements of emotions. But with you, it pretty much starts with an okay mood, then it snowballs down the road to sadness. I wonder why, I can't fork out the answer in my mind. I am really trying, I need to put a stop to this situation quick before I totally lose my sanity.
I'll have to either fix this or run away from this.
Fixing it means that I'll have to fight head-on with this problem. but I am pretty much not allowed to do this?
Running away. I'll have to totally make sure our lives never inter-twine anymore.
or maybe I could just live in the sea of emotions?
this alligator-infested swamp..
right now you probably understand what I am going through, but still not know why and what is causing me to be like this. heh.
well, My Theme Song For Tonight:
- When I'm With You - Faber Drive -

"When I'm With You, I'll Make Every Second Count Cause I Miss You, Whenever You're Not Around."

"Saw you walk in to the room
Thought i'd try to talk to you
am i ever glad you wanted me to "

I'll try. really.

Dreams Beget Nightmares, Nightmares Beget Dreams

2008-06-09T17:39:00.001+08:00

This last night, was the last night, I'll never want to dream again.

Have you ever had such great expectations of something,
when it turns out not as good as you expected,
your whole spirit gets totally crushed?

Have you ever imagined a totally gorgeous scene,
depict the greatness of what you are going to see
and find out that its not that majestic?

Have you ever dreamt a person to do what you dream that person would do
and when you wake up, its just a dream?

Have you ever bought something and pondered over its worth,
feeling totally joyous that you have bought something new and wonderful,
and the next week, it malfunctions?

Dreaming... You feel so great, you enjoy every moment, that's what dreams are for, your utmost desires, your wants, your love.
but after awakening from your dream.
it turns into a total nightmare. everything you had, everything you wanted, all just becomes null and void.

Nightmares... The total opposite of dreaming. Your greatest fears, your most hated people, your Never-want-to-be happenings.
waking up from it, a total relief, its just like living a dream where those monsters aren't real, those people are not anywhere to be seen.

Dreams Beget Nightmares, Nightmares Beget Dreams.

and the nightmare, is the life I live right now.

When I wake up from this life, I'll hope it becomes my Dream come true.
_____________________________________________________________________________________

Sis you'll be back in a few hours time. heh =)
I'ld love to share with you these few days you went missing in my life.
and I hope you'ld share with me your happenings.

P.S thanks bestfriend for the amazing cookies.

2008-06-06T04:08:00.000+08:00

well, this whole week, I've been escaping by going to 79 every single day possible, and try to either play/study and definitely talk my life away.
You Dont Know How Much This Causes
He Causes Everything I've Worked For To Flip Over
Leaving Me In A Tremulous State
It Isnt Fun
But Heh, I'm Getting Over This
These Days,
Will Be The Last Days I'll Ever Suffer
And You Can Get Back To Life Before Shit.
This is my lachrymose post.
but only for me.
Its Only For Me.

As My Life Wrys down the river to emo-ness
I guess I need to get over this fast
You dont know how much joy and sadness you brought into my life
how much influence you've put into me
but heh,
I'm backing out of this.
It is no place
absolutely,
no place for me here.
I'll take my leave now

Dont expect me to turn back and say oh wow,
I didnt mean to say all these.

For: _______________
By: Me

Dont Assume Who It Is For.
I know you will
=)

2008-06-04T02:07:00.000+08:00

scums, harridans, you guys are the scorn of my life, the bane of my existance, the freaking knife in my ass.
You only think your comments that you pass
could leave my mind in a mess
well think again
I've passed your test
you can't put me down with your chains
I could beat you down with my chest.
I haven't even tried doing my best.

see that?
Incompetant and dumb you are
I'll step on you like a doormat
roll you over with a car
till you're all flat
and disposed extremely far.

dont try breaking my bonds
cause I'm sure you can't even touch these horns
I am done with you
all the wasted time thinking of solutions to undo
this hurt you've place in both of us
I think I'ld rather roll you over with a bus.

Back off. I mean it. Don't screw around with me and my relationships.

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2008-05-19T10:52:00.000+08:00

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2008-05-08T20:55:00.001+08:00

Behind-the-scenes of Heroes S2 photoshoot by EW #1
Behind-the-scenes of Heroes S2 photoshoot by EW #2

=)

2008-05-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

Kristen Bell Photoshoot

2008-04-22T22:11:00.001+08:00

Mid years are coming. and I'm not studying hard enough. shit.

but thank God for a wonderful Sunday Night. =)

http://view.break.com/487616 - Watch more free videos

2008-04-19T00:50:00.001+08:00

Jason Mraz/Paul Williams - The Rainbow Connection

1:56.

2008-04-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

Split Series - Jason Mraz - It's a lovely day
by lablogotheque

Split - Jason Mraz - Live High
by lablogotheque

Live High. =) =)

Like lipstick traces on pillow cases

2008-04-16T20:19:00.000+08:00

well. my biological timeclock is wonky.
slept at 5-10pm last night, stayed up till 1 then started doing chem till 2 and thats when I went back to sleep.
and right now, since 2, it's a period of monotonous waiting and hour after hour its just a cycle.

My Lyrics/Poem. My Night. ----- Changes

2008-04-14T23:27:00.002+08:00

Will you come and claim my sorrows tonight?
Will you be the one that dries my tears tonight?
Will I be loved unconditionally by you?
Will I die with a life not knowing the beauty that is you?
But you're changing.

Cause I'm trying my best to be all that I can
But sadly my mind is totally bent
If the love I gave you could be as countless as the sand
I'ld be the waves which collects them to bring them to you on yet another shore
But time's changing.

Cause tonight with my feet on the floor I feel like I could just fly
Fly away to a place where I can say "Good-Bye,
My dear I loved you so."
but I've been too unworthy my heart is cold.

The light that I see is not aflame like it used to be
How we enjoyed the the times on the beach with the breeze,
I feel abandoned to the core of my heart
decapitated, your words hurt like darts.

I'm a female black widow,
saying I love you yes I do
on the other hand I'll take you as a feast
I'm such a beast
but I'm changing.

Cause tonight with my feet on the floor I feel like I could just fly
Fly away to a place where I can say "Good-Bye,
My dear I loved you so."
but I've been too unworthy my heart is cold.

The light that I see is not aflame like it used to be
How we enjoyed the the times on the beach with the breeze,
I feel abandoned to the core of my heart
decapitated, your words hurt like darts.

I'ld compare you to a camera
You capture the most beautiful moments
and yet blur to the path ahead
keeping only memories focused but the future burnt.
But life's changing

Am I as unworthy as I seem,
no, but yet I am
If I were to say things proving my intelligence dim
I would be the usual man I am,
But untrue these words will be proven.
cause my mind's changing

Changes Changes Changes,
I'll drop my books and run away with you
cause you're all I need,
everything I have but lack
and oh, I tried my best to do what you do
but all I can is to plant a seed
and never water it, writing its future off as black.
but life's changing

Cause tonight with my feet on the floor I feel like I could just fly
Fly away to a place where I can say "Good-Bye,
My dear I loved you so."
but I've been too unworthy my heart is cold.

The light that I see is not aflame like it used to be
How we enjoyed the the times on the beach with the breeze,
I feel abandoned to the core of my heart
decapitated, your words hurt like darts.

I guess I'm a pugnacious individual,
going against change like I'm even near being its equal.
But no matter how hard I try I'll never be able,
I'ld just be going round like a carousel.
and I'm trying

I'm sitting here on higher ground
do you miss me from way down there?
I've been trying to move but still I'm bound
to find someone to fill my heart so bare.
but all's changing

Cause tonight with my feet on the floor I feel like I could just fly
Fly away to a place where I can say "Good-Bye,
My dear I loved you so."
but I've been too unworthy my heart is cold.
My heart is cold
Unworthy and my heart is cold.

-Sam

Screw You Sam - Shut Up

2008-04-14T22:29:00.001+08:00

2008-04-13T22:44:00.004+08:00

The chair that I'm sitting on doesn't seem to emit the heat like when you were here with me.
While in the shadows resting on my arms,
the Sun's rays are everywhere except around me.
But hey,
The Sun is present but I'm not ceasing the chance to get into the path of it's rays.
I'm being stubborn yet again and expecting it to come to me.
Stubborn,
A person whom neglects others and goes on with his work although he's wrong.
A person who does not think about his benefits but only about his self image,
and in the end will suffer the most.
What a word... to describe me.
My Soul is ringing,
My Heart is dry but still I'm singing
My Mine is out but still I'm thinking
My Legs are tired but still I'm running
My Eyes are fine but still I'm crying.

So if God has faith in me, Why dont I have the same faith in him?
Faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains,
a mustard seed, if it were that easy,
everywhere in the world mountains would be moving already,
Oceans will be parting
Clouds will be falling along with the stars
Trees will be dancing
Dogs will be flying
and I wont be suffering.

I'm TRYING to put my faith in you.
empasis on TRYING.

You

2008-04-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

Stars And Clouds
Contravenes The Dirt And Black Waters.
Rivers and Horizons
but the silhouette of your beauty is the focus of my sight.
Reflections in the aqua blue waves

A black shadow,
Is that me?
Surrounded by a white aura,
is that you?
Am I alone in this,
Or are you with me.

Even the sand on the ground,
the weather
people
and perspectives
are all changing.
but whenever I look into the water to reveal the white aura,
It's appearance stagnant.
Though I may be changing along with the world,
You are ever loving,
Never changing. =)

It's not like I want to live on in this manner without You as my goal,
I will never neglect the awesomeness of your glory.
I will never forget your promises and assurances,
I will never be a creep.

Only in You shall I have Great Fidelity.
And to others like my brothers and sisters, Father and Mother.

Okay. Relationships/friendships, kinda seem to be plunging downwards.
am I never meant to enjoy a long term friendship with a person without change?
all these problems lead back to my problem with changes.
The Most DREADED, ABHORRED, LOATHED, ANTAGONISTIC problem I have with this ever CHANGING world.
things go up then drops. so I wonder. whats the point of it going up anyways?

2008-04-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

im sick right now. so. uhh. hehe.
just look at the pics. =D

02/04/2008

2008-04-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

the headache song. has gotten me to ache for it.
ugh... changes in life.
I freaking hate them.
and why am I experiencing changes every single second in my life. why can't it stay at ONE FREAKING MOMENT?
one happy moment
one joyous occasion.
but yet. I realised. even though I get better.
The next day. Things worsen yet again. Like a Wheel, just that its broken.
going halfway, then going back again.
And please. Give me some freaking space.
I am freaking tired.
I am bloody moody.
and you have to freaking say the same thing to me at least 5 times.
I get the message. I FREAKING GOT IT. DONT KEEP PESTERING ME LIKE A FREAKING WATERFALL INTO A BASIN.

_______________________________________________________________________________

I say I'm ok. But I'm not.
I say I'm happy. But I'm Dying.
I say I'm Alright. But I'm Broken.
I say I'll be better off alone. But Its A Fact that I always need someone beside me.
wth. Lord can't I just survive off myself?
Must I drag others into my already screwed up life.
Must I be a _____ and bring others down with me.
Spoiling other's moods and at the same point bringing myself further down.
Give me an ALTernate way. And I'll TAB myself out.
just to switch my vision to another WINDOW.
Give me an ALTernate choice. And I'll Waste it off by pressing the F4 to superficially end my troubles.
I'll rather be anybody.
than a screwed up me.
Fix me. Cause I'm Rusting in the rain.
Ditch your tools. Cause I'm just a Fool.
yet again... I'm running insane.

2008-03-31T21:32:00.000+08:00

love this line

' Just Writing About God's Love, Would Be Enough To Drain The Oceans Dry '

2008-03-30T23:32:00.000+08:00

'Losing you is like living in a world with no air
So how do you expect me to live alone with just me? cause my world revolves around you it's so hard for me to breathe
Tell me how I'm supposed 2 breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon breathe without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air'

hey, dont pay no mind. =)
By tuesday you'll be fine.
it wont take long.
though seconds may seem to prolong.
but i know. God will make a way.
Jesus is the way, the truth and the light.

CHEERS
Fishlips. =)

2008-03-27T23:48:00.001+08:00

Ever Since 20th March 2008 11pm? till now.
It's Officially One Of The WORST times of my life.
the Worst mistake of my life.
and I mean it.

Jason Mraz - (dunno, Unreleased.)

2008-03-27T22:08:00.001+08:00

Jason Mraz, This Is Just The Best Song Ever. =D
Even I Can Swoon To It o.o

2008-03-26T17:08:00.002+08:00

The Bucket List

Click That Link. Trailer To 'The Bucket List'.
I wanna watch. =( anyonee?

Stop This Train

2008-03-26T13:15:00.005+08:00

moments of sadness. moments of joy. moments of anger. moments I dread.

Moments, A brief, indefinite interval of time.
A period of waiting.
waiting for what? waiting for whom?
waiting for your overwhelming body to crash upon me,
pushing me to my knees.
waiting for your presence to cover me wholly.
and then recoiling yet again?
taking with you all the sorrows
all the energy from me.
and as you prepare to spring back.
sucking up all the energy and power you can get.
power-minded

As I knelt there,
the somewhat seemingly cotton-ish ground gave way,
sinking slowly.
Opened myself totally into being vulnerable
vulnerable to your retaliation.

You were charged up.
As you came
the ground started to be sucked into your presence,
an azure oblivion.
You crashed over me yet again,
this time there was no rebuttal nor retaliation from me.
I was completely overwhelmed by your presence
drowning.
The repercussions of our freedom.

Your hair, Curls that resembles the clenching of my fist
Your body, Smooth, strong yet Calm. Cerulean Dressing
Your Mouth, Never seems to be saying anything different, your compliments of me, the rubbish, the corals, pearls and weeds.

You lift me up
carried my burdens
The weight of my burdens
simply floats in your touch.
While I lay in that Star-shaped position,
reminiscing my wrongs and my mistakes.
I wonder, how can I ever have mistaken you to be
a character of semi-opposite.

Oh God. Please Turn Moments of Sorrow and Angst Into Time Immemorial
I'm sick of this.

The Summary of MY feelings the past week.
There you go. You can see I havent forgot bout what my Itchy Hands did.
Why didn't I flip tables instead of flipping sleeping giants.

It turns out. I'm not who I am anymore.
What happened in the year 2005.
Is repeating itself...

Am I a jinxed?
Time to practice what America loved practicing
"Isolationism"?
But screw this more?

SOMEONE PLEASE, ENLIGHTEN ME ABOUT WHAT TO DO. PLEASE
finding a damn tree,
the old oak tree.
where sorrows just fade away.
where we'll be like children.
swinging our legs on the branches
symbolising our freedom
our peace
our connection.

Well I didnt go to school today,
was sick.
And I'm stoning at this screen.
Ranting on this post.
It's been an hour.
It still doesnt seem perfect.
The Worst Thing About Being Sick/Sad/Angsty on a Damned schoolday/weekday/working day.
Nobody You Need is availible to talk.
Therefore. Its rotting in silence

ugh. Lord.
Im down to begging.
Begging for You to please,
enlighten me.
I just want to solve this ever hindering problem
.

Theme Songs Today:
Only One - Yellowcard
Last Train Home - Lost Prophets

Im sorry for being such a Useless BUM.
I really am weak on the inside.
I shouldnt spill out my sorrows like a hose to a bucket.
I am already trying to shut my mouth up on all bad things.

May all your days be merry and bright.

The fire is slowly dying
And my dear we're still goodbye-ing
As long as you love me so
Let it snow, let snow, let it snow

2008-03-24T16:41:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday kor.

Those Clouds. Form A Broken Heart. Forms My Heart. ^
| look up and see

The heavens are opening just for you
but you arent opening up for it.

Cheer up! up up and away!

2008-03-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
when skies are grey.

Little Miss Sunshine/Little Miss Giggles.

Cheers! -Fishlips Loads-

=)

2008-03-22T01:12:00.002+08:00

Capture Of the past 2 days.
Trying to get many forest shots. didnt turn out right though.

Today and yesterday wasnt exactly what i'ld dream for. but
I still Thank God.

We will find a solution to this problem
We will get back the free-ness of our conversations
and we will definitely find a way. =)
I'll make sure the oak tree be found and it'll only belong to us
no one will recognise the meaning of it and the impact it can deal.

2008-03-20T18:02:00.000+08:00

Green Grass
Black Me
Blue Seas/Skies
Black Me
White/Gray Clouds
Black Me
Black Roads
Black Me
Purple Cloths
Black Me
Pink Bands
Black Me
Yellow Cars
Black Me
Silver Cups
Black Me
Violet Atmosphere
Black Me
Dark Nights
Black Me
Bright Stars
Black Me

Can you see the contrast? There isnt one you can spot
Cause you are blind. blind and wilful.
There is the comfort you arent supposed to feel.
so,
I felt the cold last night.
I lost myself but nevermind.
The night sets in but im not set.
All I want is to Just let go.
Let go of everything bad.
Well, Today you were just an ass.
Hands should be kept by your side.
Mouth shut until theres a divine afflatus.
You should be castigated, admonished, proscribed.

A polygon
expanding at an exponential rate
while im counting the miles each point moves
a metre rule wont suffice
neither will a measuring tape.
hmm. I wonder what if I just threw a dice?

Out of the question
never to be thought
the answers are so vague
my eyes bleared by the biting wind.
my blistering thoughts.
more than what I caught.

So. End Of Story. Cut Off. Don't Bring No One In To Your Damned Life Again. Sort Your detrital life. then start ameliorating others'.

2008-03-20T01:49:00.002+08:00

hey there
take a glance over your shoulder.
whats past may be affecting your present.
but your present to others should not be affected by the past.
whats cool may not burn your hands but whats hot freezes your mind.
turning all around. people all around. a person to find you're bound.
its the night of ever flying emotions. the evening of change. the day of knowing.
we may not be perfect. neither are the people around us. but there will definitely be someone that is the one in your eyes.
neither of the two seems right.
dont oblige. dont strive.
patience. a fruit in the fruit.
take the plunge. take the dive
follow into the diverse and blurred vision you got
led by the Almighty one.
Nothing Is Impossible.
nothing you cant grasp.
so dont restrict yourself.
dont be sad
its not like she can overcome the hearts of the people you know around you.
Her matters are nugatory.
Look into yourself. Fullstop.

Trying To Capture The Droplets

2008-03-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

My Other Dream Car - Koenigsegg CCXR Special Edition

2008-03-17T20:08:00.002+08:00

WITH REMOVABLE HARDTOP STORABLE IN FRONTAL HOOD! =D

omgg

stats

-Engine Type: Koenigsegg V8 cast aluminium, 4 valves per cylinder, double overhead camshafts. Sequential, multipoint fuel injection. Twin Rotrex centrifugal superchargers with response system 1.5 bar boost pressure.

Displacement: 4.700 cm3.

Compression: 8.2:1

Lubrication system: Dry sump with oil spray piston cooling, and oil cooler.

Fuel: 98 octane / E85 (biofuel)

Power output: 1018 Bhp at 7.200 rpm.

Maximum torque: 1060 Nm (740ftlb) at 6.100 rpm.

Acceleration: 0-100 km/h (0–62 mph) 2.9 seconds.

Top speed: 400 km/h (250 mph).

Braking distance: 31m (100–0 km/h)

Lateral G-force: 1.4 G

Fuel consumption: Highway travel: 18 l/100 km Combined: 22 l/100 km

omgg. rockss.
dem sexy too!

LAMBORGHINI REVENTON! CHLOEE! BRING ME TO WHERE YOU LAST SAW IT. ITS ON SAM'S WANTED LIST

2008-03-17T19:58:00.001+08:00

Lamborghini Reventon vs. Panavia Tornado jet-fighter November 23rd 2007 22:00

The good people over at Motor Authority have reported that the latest supercar to challenge a jet-fighter in a drag race is the ultra-exclusive hypercar, Lamborghini Reventon.

The location of the 'battle' was on a 3km stretch of runway at the Ghedi airforce base in Italy to ensure that the Reventon was given a nice flat road; long enough for it to reach (or at least come close) its top speed and also a place to launch a Panavia Tornado jet-fighter obviously.

At the launch, the Reventon's stupendous power and neck-jarring traction gave it the lead; the car's 3.4s 0-100km/h sprint time giving it the jump it needed but like many challengers that have come and gone, including the 736kW Bugatti Veyron, the jet-fighter slowly reeled in the road car near the closing stages as the jet’s wheels left the ground and surpassed the Reventon's 340km/h top speed thus pipping it to the post!

Although one would struggle to understand the point of pitting a road-going car against a jet-fighter, it must be said that it is one heck of a marketing stunt that would have no problems capturing the imagination of any motoring enthusiast.

-credits of photos and story to www.zcars.com.au

=S

2008-03-17T17:48:00.000+08:00

S-a-r-c-a-s-m
Well the sky seems bright today the clouds arent in the way,
My life is perfect now and by the time you see this it wont be late,
I'll be enjoying life like these widows when their husbands are dead.
Sarcasm brought me here to show you this,
that I am not the steel abomination your mind tells you about me.
My life wrys down this meandering river which doesn't end with a mouth but instead winds up at your porch.
Oh joy I feel abandoned and meek. Fragile, hurt and vulnerable to words.
"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words ironically decapitate me."

there. thats the story of my Sunday. although the 10-11:45pm part was so great. =D
experiences that cant be measured by words ( due to my lousy vocabulary )

Thanks for the week thats past.... Everyone

Cloud Smiles.

2008-03-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

Only The Most Beautiful Piece I've Ever Heard. =)

Cry - Mandy Moore.- - - A Walk To Remember Soundtrack

2008-03-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon (yea)
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry (cryyy..)

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in September
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure...
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find

In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside (Forever was in your eyes)
It was now that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry (Baby cry)
The moment that I saw you cry (oh, no, no..)
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry

(Fade out)
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you

2008-03-11T17:47:00.000+08:00

to make up for what i've lost

2008-03-11T15:02:00.000+08:00

The Tenth Of March

2008-03-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

blogger has something wrong. cant upload photos. -.-
well nvm. Today, Caleb, Merrilyn, Wen Ai and Myself went to watch August Rush at vivo city. it was great. gave me some new piano inspirations. =)
(highly recommended for those who play music instruments, especially guitar)
=D
Caleb left us to go for Mosaic, and later Wen Ai went for her dinner.
took a bus back home with Merrilyn as she had to go tuition.
came home. played with my brother, Yi En and Yi Hui (there I blogged about my cousins) came to my house to hang around. Yi En cam firse as Aunty Sok Hua went to pick up Yi Hui from RAFFLES RAFFLES! =D
there and that. thats my story for today.
I totally abhor the feeling of loneliness.

The Week

2008-03-02T17:33:00.000+08:00

Today Wasnt A Particularly Good Day. Neither Was Yesterday. Nor The Day Before. In All. This Week Was Quite Bad. But I Still Thank God Im Still Alive Despite Some Bus Side Mirror Skimming My Ear. =D And I got to talk to a person I havent talk to in awhile. so i guess today was ok. Though frisbee was cancelled. =D may this new week of tests be fruitful!

2008-03-02T09:01:00.000+08:00

I don't know what I'm doing anymore

=)

2008-02-27T20:54:00.003+08:00

Well, Hello There My Dear Friend.
Missed You For 5 Days.
I Couldnt Do Much Recently
Without You I Sadly Cant.
But Thanks For Coming Back
Cause It Time To Have Some Fun.

Picture time! =)

K850i !

The Reflections Of The Flustered Heart. Drifting Into Halcyon-ess

Thanks Alot Arh. For Both Your Middle Fingers To Be So Extra In The Beautiful Picture. Though I Cannot Rmb Who You Are. -.-

2008-02-20T19:01:00.000+08:00

ugh. i got my phone confiscated, thanks to TSH. :@
such an ass. im on the brink of screaming vulgaritiess. roar $!@&*^#$&*@^#*&@!^
but well. i'll leave it to God whether he permits me to get my phone back or not. =(

Why I Love The k850i so much. Happy B'day Sis

2008-02-18T18:24:00.001+08:00

And A Very Very Happy Happy Merry Merry Birthday Sis! =D
Though It May Come Once A Year
But Theres No Reason To Jeer
Its A Happy Occasion
One Which Is An Orientation.
God Bless! *fishlips* =P

-Samm =)

the humane heart

2008-02-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

For all these years, it shows how the devil works in us. The pain and suffering he puts us through. The force to our minds which makes us want more and more. The everlasting absence in our hearts, the tumour that's not just a palm size, but bigger than our body, fitting in our soul like a keystone with corroded holes in it, our miniscule selves aren't enough to release this curse , what we need is the power of God, to incapicitate the evil one.. The cumulative effects of the corroded keystone leads only to our demise, palliating it is not the answer, removing it and replacing it with the 1 and only Jesus Christ. To repair our hearts into apple pie order.
Carpe diem - sieze the day.

etc.

2008-02-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

the rest. =)

Chinese New Year!!!

2008-02-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

the first day. more pics coming up.this blog is screwed up. so hard to upload pics

Chinese New Year

2008-02-07T00:21:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year. =D
A time of bai nian-ing, ang bao collecting, meeting long lost relatives, having fun with relatives u dont even know, heart breaks, and definitely, a time for joy.
heres wishing to everyone i know. =D
Gong Xi Fa Cai. Wan Shi Ru Yi. Xue Ye Jing Bu. Wan Sui Wan Sui Wan Wan Sui. =)

2008-02-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's a holiday. =D
and im still slacking about...
been thinking. so I guess I should end this craze by the end of the Chinese new year. And Get back to reality
man I hate going to other people's houses. so boring..
ughh..
im falling asleep in front of my comp. so i better get to bed..

The Fourth Day

2008-02-04T18:31:00.000+08:00

So long and it hasnt gone away yet...
Im still waiting for your acceptance on msn.
its been 4 days.
4 days of screwed up-ness
4 days of emo-ness
4 days of pure unenjoyment.
everything I do seems to contradict what your face tells me you are
nothing seems to be corroborating anything I feel.

So should I just drop this issue?
Even if I should, I can't seem to get it out of my head.
If you dont want yourself to be in my mind. why don't you just get out?
ugh...
I'll be waiting.
For The One.
4 days down. endless more to go.

The days been ok today.
been smsing Natalia in school =P hahah.
E maths lesson was so great.
The thought of switchfoot's "yesterdays" is still playing in my head
the concert is still going on in my mind. though some songs arent even on the thursday playlist.
I hope tomorrow will be a good day.

The Poem. "The One"

2008-02-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

The One

The time is now
whether the love we have is genuine.
Perfect harmony
Is never perfect
The rhymes of life
Devastates my heart
Akin to the troubles of life.
Choices I have to make
Are the choices I dread
Reflections of my halcyon heart
Isn’t as peaceful I feel.
So who do I love?
Who do I adore?
Who do I like?
And who would I fight…
The choices yet again
Are along my way
Just like the rain
It brings me pain.
Lunging towards the heart
Fragile as it is
When it misses the beat
It shatters into bits.

So why am I wrong
Am I near the answer?
finding a way
Battling the sword
That has be put against me
I will never abort.
The Sword Of The Spirit is my weapon
Against all odds.
So is the answer clear?
Has it ever been.
The love I’ve found
Has been an illusion
Pieces of the puzzle
Lost in oblivion
Will it ever be?
Will it ever be….

Together forever
Or never ever.
The thought antagonizes me
So we weren’t on terms
We weren’t conversing
So what?
Couldn’t things start now?
The messenger is in comfort
The keys are all set
But the words just seem to come out all wrong.

The feeling is right
The time is ripe
Though the words just bring hurt

No pain is inflicted on the other side
Therefore the mouth will be shut tonight..

Something I wrote during Superteens camp. sry to start out so sad but uhh
this is how im reviving my blog. =D
hahah

and Chloe! SIS! QUICK HEAL THEN CAN TALK ON THE PHONE =P
hahah and please recognise my voice. dun "huh? huh?"
hahaha =P

2007-04-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

Chem and Physics sucks as both teachers CMI (cannot make it)
always send people detention for nothing -.-
and now. my science dun understand much. chinese understand NOTHING
english so-so
mathes so-so
a mathes tough
history good
geog -.-
sucks man.
mid year fail = die
i hate sec 3...
especially some teachers

CHLOE ROCKS

2007-04-03T23:10:00.000+08:00

"hi this is sam.
chloe rocks a lot a lot a lot =)
yours truly,
sam."
=)

P.S : chloe please dun kill me

LOng time.

2007-04-03T15:48:00.000+08:00

well. this is for the boredness im going through now. so yea. i forgot how to change my blog stuff so im leaving the stuff here. could anyone teach me again. haha
i hate my chem and phy teachers. school is quite boring. waiting for june =)

2007-01-05T16:01:00.000+08:00

hahha. been really bored in skool these days, and yeah. its the start of skools =)
and i got Dim Sum Dolly as my teacher xD
all my teachers quite sucky lo. =S
hahaha
and the hols are gone. Sec 3 life aint that good. the best part is that we are wearing long pants. =)
hahaha

Jack And The Bean-Sprout

2006-12-25T21:20:00.000+08:00

Today I Went with my cuzzins and my aunt and unvle from perth to the National Library (NLB) to watch Jack And The Bean-Sprout. It was a very good show. Super funny and Nice to see! theres nth else i can say to this cause it was too good and its a Local Production!! =D
I wanna watch again. But Its the last time . And The Ticks Are Ex. lol. xD

2006-12-21T09:55:00.000+08:00

Hols Are Comin To An End, And. I Bought Presents This Year. HAHA
but i missed alot of people out. dotz

Plunge =D

2006-12-12T13:46:00.000+08:00

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Ok. I'll start by saying about the 1st day.

Day 1
It was an early morning awakening cause we woke up at 530am or so.. haha.. then me and bro were late for the start and we both were group leaders. lol. when we reached church at 6:30am. everyone looked dead but i knew they were excited at whats gonna happen during camp, like me =D.
we then got ready,took attendance , did the white card thing and then left in a bus at 7am. the bus that my group , Frothy Crushanks of the Pirates and the other 2 , Brigand Blackspot and Swashy Swordfish were extremely quiet. haha. so quite boring la. but then after we reached the immigration place. we went off and took our bags and stuff to change bus, and "amazingly" the new bus' seats rocked, but..the engine sucked. the bus cant even climb a mild hill and have to go to the shoulder and move at like 10km per hour. dots ..................................... the best part is that the driver didnt even know where exactly we are going and got us lost for 2 hours. so we reached the camp at 2pm. and the worst is. WE MISSED FRISBEE!!!!!!!! boooooo . but we had briefing immediately, no time to get our rooms so rushed lunch then started station games called AR-Amazing Race. the games was really fun and innovative, Shou Ye, NoT BaD at all =D
My Bunkmates in my Chalet are Nick(N) , Shawn(S) and Ivan(I)
ok, i'll speed on to the next day
Day 2
the day started as a normal day, woke up at 720am , did QT then went for Breakfast with N , I and S, it was ok. the cereal was expired i think, lucky i nvr take. but there got lots of flies. irritating. lucky they are not Desperate Houseflies . ahaha
then we had meeting bout what we were gonna do and guess what, we were gonna go GO-KARTING AND PAINTBALL!! Woots
but then we had workshop 1 which i went for Shards of a Broken Mirror which helped me alot 1st then the Two games.
Our group along with 2 others Go-karted 1st, while the 6 others paintball.
we go karted and karted then it was my turn to go with Joel Lin , I started last then at the start Chee Wee had the best kart and zoomed away while Joel and Yokey Crashed infront of me, lucky i nvr crash too, then after that , i didnt see anyone else anymore, thats boring , aahah, but the overall score is 7/10
then it was on to paintball, where b4 i put my mask properly, my specs broke, so i went in without specs in which i couldnt see anyone properly and the mask keeps fogging up.
haha. so i anyhow shoot and shoot. almost shot Matt, ahahha, the first game i was useless but the second game with the team i sacrificed my gun and gave it to Matt, who became Rambo, then i chionged for flag which failed as someone was camping there and shot a near point blank shot at my hand and made a sick bruise, i felt really useless cuz i couldnt shoot or capture the flag. but it all changed when i joined the comm team, we scored 1st then the opponents scored , then at the last game, someone got shot while carrying the flag so i rushed there and took it and ran back and shot paint balls in the sky in victory so we won the game ! YEA! so i rate paintballs 9/10
isnt that a good rating?
ok, so far, all the worships rocked , but i only posted on games, now , i am gonna post on the worship on the 3rd day
Day 3
the time i woke up was a little late but i still managed to do QT and eat breakfast. then we had worship, which was not bad at all ,aft which is workshop 2. which helped too
then we had sermon then PLUNGE! which we took a flying fox which symbolizes that we plunge into the unknown with God =D
then it became house time then Dinner/Variety night. My pirate tattoo is a Tic Tac Toe . ahah
then we had the Camp fire, ROCKS , i'll put up pics and stuff when i get it.
haha , i was acting as the Tickle Me Elmo Doll. Which was really retarded. hehe
then we had the best part, the worship cause we had to time to bathe as it was raining bad, where God really touched my life, and i think im changed, I answered His calling. Im going for him.

G G =D
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BoTS

2006-12-02T19:47:00.000+08:00

woot, today we had Battle Of The Sexes(BoTs)!!
and guess what.. i got wet cuz my "best" friend that I trusted SOOOOOO much to pour the water into the cup not onto my face and my clothes and in my mouth *CLIFTON*. ahhaha. nvm. no bad feelings =D . i won even have bad feelings unless . dadada dummmm
lol
haha. and in the end.. BOYS WON!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
lol. no hard feelings to anyone though =DD
i shall explain a few games.
Water Pouring Thingy Cup Game Stuff
Its To pour water from a Cup into another cup which is on a guy lying on the floor's face. u are standing on a chair and must try to have the highest level of water in the cup than the other team.. (brief Explanation)
Chinese Word Game
this is bout one guy chosen to stand on the second floor then ur at the first with your team and the GM(game master) will give ur team a chinese word then u have to form it with ur bodies. haha. then the guy on top must guess =D
im bored, dun wan say le. hahaa
So fun. The Dinner was nice . we played Dai Dee(not sure how its spelt) anad i lost all the games till the last!! Yay for me *cheers*
lol..
Sheng Jian and Merrilyn Cheated!! They won all the games................................ Ahah.. nah. anyhow say. but at least i won 1
hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe
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Work

2006-11-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

i went to work todayy. hahaha. shiok hor. my mums office.
9hrs a day
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$80$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$per$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$hour$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
ahha. joking
80bucks for 2 days. can la
bout 4bucks an hour.. free lunch
ahhaha
man, should i work for 1 month??
tag or comment so i can decide

2006-11-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today Gerald. Sam ee. and I went to Grassroots club wanted play bowling. lol. then the centre was closed.
so we went to the arcade there. then we were playing daytona and my machine was spoilt.... keep forcing me to move left cannot turn right. gear cant change. haha. then i playing the safarri game. chasing animals and catching them. SOOOOO FUN!!! haha.
lol. then I went home slack awhile while they actually wanted watch Happy Feet™ but then i didnt feel like watching and wasting 9bucks. or was it 8..hmm. nvm.
hahah. so we met back at 3.30pm
then we went lan for 2 hours. Owned some Battle.Net People. And We Had 2 leavers.lol
then we play battlfield. which wasted alot of our money.
then we went to find the Ice Cream Fondue Place. Samuel Ee gave us the wrong directions then we walked blindly around..... for a long time. then we took a bus back.. then we walked around and tried finding the place. Sam ee told us it was there but we didnt wanna believe him. so we walked on. he followed. then we walked and walked and walked. till we reached "johor" ... jkjk
then we actually reached the place when we turned back and realized its the place where Sam Ee told us.........DOTZ Dotz dotz ....
so. we ate the ice cream fondue.. wa shiok.
then we ate ROTI PRATAA
yumyum. though the milo was diluted... haha
then me and gerald went to the bus stop while Sam ee went across the road. Gerald's bus came fast but mine took really long.. haha. then i saw this girl hitting a guys ass. YUCKS
nvm.
then i went home then i played Uno with gerald on msn. =D

Suck...

2006-11-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

well today sucks. some stupid guy spilled a full pail of dunno what kinda water on my jeans and i was soaked knee-down. shoes were soaked too. wth. next time give ur pails seatbelt la. ...

Frizbee

2006-11-19T22:48:00.000+08:00

Frizbee
frisbee really drained my energy but it kinda rocked. was def now and i am getting better by the week =)
yay
then i realised my tossing sucks so im going to be a pure defender till i can throw. or more of a half def half attk =D
yea man.

TRAILBLAZERRSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-18T13:14:00.000+08:00

TRAILBLAZERS
WOOT it was soo fun. I love overnight events!!! the comm met at 3 and we started preparing which was not as funn but still fun. then at 7+ the event started.=)
the briefing was given , the children named their two groups "Beans Make Us Fart" and " Sexy Arms" . haha wierd for Primary kids..then they set off for the 1st game. Virus!
it has this wierd hat made by sherylene haha. then the kids were running about. i ran then went to drink some water. then ran again then i felt like puking the water out. lol
then it was the bugis game which i didnt see cuz i was preparing the Dance game at esplanade. =D
before the kids came. Joel Ong bought us Kaya Toast Fondue ! ahaha. We were more of slacking then preparing but at least we enjoyed it. haha. then when the 2 groups came. woah. super stress. but den ok la. i did well to my expectations that i would stammer . lol
then we went to Vivo but we missed the lsat bus so we got the uncles and auntys to "take us on a ride"(Trailblazers Slogan) to Vivo. i didnt wanna get wet cuz my spare pants was too small. hehe. and i had no change of footwear. so i just sat there and slept. but in the end i couldnt sleep. haha. Diao hor..
at last. we went back to church. woah i was half dead when we went back.
then we had PRATA for supper. but it wasnt as nice cuz its was cold. =(. but nonetheless when theres egg prata. i love it =D
then we had a while of free time which i actually slept then i slept through two games. =.= no one wake me up. sommore Nick Wee was sleeping on the sofa next to mine. he went off and nvr wake me up.
so i went up. they played a few more games. then its my game (Sardines) me caleb and ivan went to hide behind the sofa which gave me a rash. so i let the kids find me. haha.
then we had a sleeping time. then haha. the funny part. Caleb went to talk to sherylene when she was sleeping. then she wanted him not to bather her. but caleb was still talking and asking her stuff then she hit him. lol. =D
then i couldnt sleep. .................... haha. so when it ended . my dad brought me and my bro back home. we bathed and slept. at 830am not pm. ahaha. then i slept at 9am actually. cuz i was smsing. woke up at 12. now i have Panda Eyes. O_O
I now have to thank those people that actually made this event fun as we talked =D
1.Ivan Leong
2.Leonard Goh
3.John Khew
4.Nic
5.Vic
6.Wan jun
7.Merrilyn
8.Sherylene
9.Lebs
10.My bro =D
11.Jolene
12.JY Comm =)
13.The Kidds
14.The Wee Twins (Shawn and Nick)
15.Vincent
16.Clifton
17.Sock lin
18.WaTang
19.Sam Lee
20.Joel Ong
21.Matt

People That I Thank ALOT
1.The People In The Residence that did not call the police =X
2.The Security That Let us use the places without their permission in the 1st place
3.Sam for the Dinner and planning
4.Watang for helping us with lotsa stuff
5.Friends For Their Company Or Trailblazers wont be what it was =D
6.Joel Ong For The Kaya Toast Fondue =D
7.Matt for the Prata
8.And Those People That Filmed The Dance Station (Sarcastic)........

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2006-11-16T14:08:00.000+08:00

ok. thats it. the staring at the com has given me sore eyes lol
so now im gonna give up. next year needa study leh.=D

2006-11-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

Past few days have been hogging comp. gonna stop soon. my eyes are red. =0
haha.
too much staring too little blinking. haha
today went out recce. walk till legs pain. this is the pics i took during recce

NEW SKIN

2006-11-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

The Best I Think. I'll definitely Stick to this. =)